“I’m still here.” All night long Ruben had been patiently waiting, trying to get his wife’s attention. He longed to spend time with her.
“I know,” Rose replied, hardly lifting her head from the pile of papers she was sorting. “But there’s just so much to do!”
Rose rubbed her tired head, thinking about how she needed to remember to pull out the meat for tomorrow’s dinner. She could still smell the aroma from the cookies she’d baked earlier to bring to some elderly neighbors. She needed to remember to put up those dishes before she went to bed. Oh, and a friend had asked her to look up something on the Internet for her — she couldn’t forget that.
“Rose, do you remember back to when we were courting and first married?” Ruben’s words interrupted her thoughts. “How we used to spend hours just talking and laughing together?”
Rose paused and looked up. Yes, she remembered. Ruben saw the answer in her face and continued, “What happened to that love you had?”
The words cut her to the quick. What had happened? In those early days, life was still busy, but she always made time to spend with Ruben. In fact, she remembered how they’d text throughout the day here and there, as hours seemed so long when apart. Everything in her centered around when she’d get to see him next. She lived off less sleep, choosing to stay up to talk with him. And her poor friends had listened to her talk about him for hours — every conversation had somehow included him.
Now, she hardly talked about him — and her discussions with him were quick and distracted. She’d say hi while also checking her texts and moving the wash along. He was still what he’d always been — loving, caring, and trying to minister to her. But she’d been ignoring him.
Rose set her papers down, tears now streaming down her cheeks. She’d been doing a lot of good things, but she had let the most important get buried.
“‘I know your works, your toil and your patient endurance, and how you cannot bear with those who are evil, but have tested those who call themselves apostles and are not, and found them to be false. I know you are enduring patiently and bearing up for my name’s sake, and you have not grown weary. But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first.” Revelation 2:2-5a (ESV)